I’m a firm believer that guardian angels exist. I’ve had several close calls that should have killed me, yet I came out unscathed for the most part. When I was about 22 years old, I was in a car accident that almost killed me. I was struck hard by a truck, and the only damage done to my body was that my skin straight down my back split wide open. I was in excruciating pain for weeks. The doctors told me that I should have been dead on impact. One of them went so far as to say that I had a guardian angel looking out for me that day.
Then there were other times where I was so drunk that I should never have made it home. I made the mistake of getting in a car with friends who had been drinking one time. We got into a wreck, but fortunately, we hit a tree. Again I was dumb, young, and thought I was invincible. I was wrong.
Many people find themselves with a guardian angel over their shoulder at various points in their lives. You don’t have to believe that there is such a thing as guardian angels. Some people think it’s luck; others believe it’s fate. Yet, no matter what you may believe, our destinies are never without some interference.
I’ve never seen my guardian angel, so I can’t tell you with 100% certainty that they exist. But I have felt the presence of something extraordinary near me. I sleep in the same room that my dad died in because it has the best light of the bedrooms in the house. There are so many nights where I can swear to you I feel his presence. It’s a warm sensation that fills the room with Peace and Serenity. Sometimes I see my dad come to me in my dreams to warn me of things that I’m doing that need attention. I moved back to my family’s home about two years ago when my job offered me the location closest to that house. My mom and I house participated in a house swap. It’s been good for both of us because we still have our independence, I have a roof over my head, and I’m close to my job. This option has been an enormous blessing for me. Otherwise, I would have gotten an apartment not too far away and paying way too much out of pocket.
I’ve had the privilege and curse of being in the room when both my grandmother’s died. My mom’s mother had a heart attack when she stood up to go to the bathroom. Mom, dad, and I were all with her when this occurred. I knew Grandma had left us because there was a warm feeling in the house. Dad and I went to the stove to fix something to eat because none of us had eaten, and it had been a long night. As I was cooking the eggs, I felt a pair of hands on my shoulders. No one was there. It was a warm sensation that’s difficult to describe. The only way I know how to describe it is that it was one of peace and a feeling of home. I will never know until it’s my turn to go. We turned to go, and I couldn’t tell you which spirits were in the room with me. But what I do know is that whoever was there filled the room with love. Then when my other grandmother passed, it was a different experience. The only thing I felt was cold. It was almost like a movie where when the character dies, all you feel is alone. Her death felt cold and unwelcoming but not evil. It made me sad for the woman because she lived a hard life, but she loved those in her family. Sometimes I felt she resented the closeness that I had with my grandfather while he was alive. I was like him, and he understood me, but my grandmother was more of a girly girl. And I didn’t excel in that world.
Sometimes when I walk down the halls of the family home, I feel the presence of ancestors walking with me. Are they guardian angels? I don’t know but what I do know is that every time I have ever felt the presence in that home of something or someone, it’s never been a bad feeling. Sometimes guardian angels are not there to help save us but rather to help guide us. There have been several times where I wanted to give up on people and things, and there’s a little voice inside me that tells me I can’t because I have more to do. I like to think of them as The Guardian angels of our conscience and subconscious.
As people, we have free will to do the things that we feel are best for us. But I firmly believe that guardian angels often put little whispers in our ears to help us understand the ramifications of our actions and choices. Some people say we have a guardian angel on one side and the devil on the other. I don’t know which is true or if any of it is. There are too many instances for too many people not to wonder if our guardian angels exist or if it’s a figment of our imagination. I choose to believe we have them. Because in all the dismal conversations that the world provides, the thought that we have a guardian angel with us makes me feel a little more at peace. Have a great weekend, everyone.